Why do I let the small stuff bother me so much? It is ridiculous. I was stepping back to gain some perspective on a situation and really witnessed how I was reacting to two very specific instances.

Now, I am literally rolling on the floor laughing at how utterly absurd my reaction was. I am ashamed of myself. Why do I take things so personally? Why can’t I let criticisms roll off my back? The most amusing part about it is that they weren’t even criticisms.

I have let the tape of these two instances play over and over again in my head, which is what made me lose my mind completely and become totally irrational.

The end result was that I ended up confronting this friend of mine and now I feel awful. I had no intention of it escalating to this degree.

All I want to be is Love and I certainly was far from demonstrating love in my response to these two instances.

The awesome thing is that in the past I would not have thought I did anything wrong. This time I have assumed the role of the observer and am able to see what I did and acknowledge that that is not who I want to be.

More than that I have to come to the awareness that whatever is being reflected back to me is only that part of my mind that is in need of healing. It is totally unnecessary to attempt to change the figure in my dream. I have to change my mind about the figure in order for the reflection to change.

I know this intellectually but to have it be your experience consistently is another thing. It takes practice, practice, practice.

I sincerely apologize to you my dear friend for bearing the brunt of this healing. There is a part of my character that is definitely undergoing a major shift and it doesn’t occur without some disruption to the status quo.

Love is the only response! No matter the circumstances!