How should I respond? The ego wants to retaliate. It wants revenge badly. It wants to withhold. It wants justice. The ego does not want to respond with love and forgiveness.

The Higher Self’s wise counsel is to take the lens and focus it back on myself. It gently reminds me of all of the times I have not been completely transparent or did not fulfill a promise or commitment.

The duel between the ego and the Higher Self is fascinating when you are able to be a bystander. This can only occur once you have stepped back from the chaos.

I am being presented with a real opportunity here to learn one of my most valuable lessons. Not only that, but this lesson has been offered to me time and time and time again and every time I have sided with the ego and not with the Higher Self. This is that most annoying skip in the record that keeps showing up.

If I don’t address it head on this time, it will show up again. I promise. That is how this works. I have been at it long enough to know that the lessons that I seem to keep repeating just get uglier with time.

Have I had enough? Why do I continue to choose pain and suffering over peace and happiness?

I need to step really far away from the situation in order to look at the options. When I give myself the necessary space I will see that the choice is simple.

The awesome news is that the Higher Self won out for quite some time. Unfortunately, not the whole time. At the bitter end, the ego just had to rear its nasty head, and actually threaten to withhold. This is not how I wanted it to end.

I was proud of myself for withstanding the pressures of the ego. I allowed myself through many of the offerings to process. I process by realizing it is just another opportunity for me to be more fully aware of my oneness with God.

I finally arrive at the place where I know that the only thing that I am here on planet earth to do is to remember that everything that is showing up has been orchestrated by my Higher Self to show me the way home, the place I never left.

It is only my thoughts that make me think otherwise!

I am at home in heaven with God every moment!