Change of subject matter. I am frustrated more than words can express. My mind cannot focus on my original post.

What is going on for me at this moment is that I am desperately seeking a way out. I am experiencing the ego’s talons digging in really deep. The ego does not want to let go. It knows that once I have freed myself from the prison that it so masterfully designed for me that all bets are off.

I will not be hostage to it any longer. It is choking because I have been cutting off its air supply. Slowly but surely it is suffocating. It is gasping for air.

I am determined this time to watch it die and am praying that it will not be resuscitated.

I am not completely naïve to the fact that as long as there is breath in this body the ego will continue to try to manipulate and connive its way back into the seat of power.

As long as my Higher Self remains where I focus all of my energy the ego stands little chance of ever being in control again.

I can experience peace and happiness rather than pain and suffering when I choose the Higher Self over the ego. My small self a.k.a. the ego continues to tempt me, tantalize me with offerings that it knows are appealing to my human nature.

The more that I deny the offerings of the ego and choose what the Higher Self is offering instead, the more I strengthen that muscle and the easier it becomes to deny the ego.

Choosing for the Higher Self is the same as choosing for God. The Higher Self is that part of each of us that is one with God. The Higher Self knows that we never separated from God and that this is all an illusion. The Higher Self only wants our true happiness and knows that the way for us to experience that is to have a close and intimate relationship with God.

God longs for this. He awaits our return home. Our home is with Him. When we turn to Him in our times of need He relishes the opportunity and welcomes us with open arms.

So God here I am turning to you. I am handing my burden over to you. I can no longer carry it. The weight is too much. I do not know the way, but I know that you do.

Please let me recognize that I have the strength to see this through because I can do all things through You who strengthens me!

Thank you God! I am eternally grateful!